One week has already gone by...
I'm feeling a little low on self-esteem, but I have to keep going...
Sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to hide my state behind the smile from people forever...
It's just...
I...
I really want to just drop on to the ground and really pretend for that moment in time that I'm carefree...
I just want to put it all behind me and press forward...
I'm growing weak... I'm feeling it... My brain keeps telling me that I'm about to fall apart if I keep it up -- But what is life without risks?
Life would be... meaningless, won't it?
I haven't shaved for a couple of days... haha... Don't know whether Mr Murali will scold me tomorrow when he sees me...
Anyway, I'm going to upload the pictures I promised. :)
I went for the School's reunion dinner yesterday... and then went to Mediacorp @ caldecott hill on friday...
Very soon, I'm not going to be able to pick myself up and move on... Behind that smile, there lies a face of hopelessness and sorrow.
Dear God,I know you're reading this...you created the universe... You gave meaning to life.You made me who I am.And now, I need my friends... But I need you the most.Because you've always been there, and I grew complacent and took things for granted.Humbly, I come to you for your forgiveness and beg for your mercy.You know my past. You know my troubles. You know everything about me-- There's nothing I can hide.You were there when the universe was created, you were there when I dedicated my life to you. And you were there when I was in struggle not very long ago -- When I thought that I'd lost my purpose...And now, savior, I ask for additional motivation and the attitude to persevere... Because I'm nothing without my faith in you.Amen.
J
6:12 AM
