I don't know what to say anymore...
I guess there are some things that I simply cannot have... I guess that I have to put it all behind me and just move onward with life...
But it's easier said than done...
My heart, itself, is so heavy I feel like I've been chained to the ground and I can't get up... My tears of pain and agony and forming in my eyes...
It's a bloody hell-damn feeling that's really going to kill me if I don't do anything to stop it...
And my rational mind is forcing me to think... To control myself... But my heart and my emotions are pulling me apart so quickly i can actually feel like I'm losing all my sense of rationality...
It's like laughing and crying at the same time... 2 split emotions that mean totally opposite things...
Heart or mind?
Emotions or rationality?
Love or Truth?
My life's currently in God's hands... Not mine, not my parents...
Let's take a look at what is going to happen to me...
I could die now, i could die later, i could die tomorrow or could die next year...
I just want to live all that I can right now...
J
9:30 PM
