I'm feeling angsty again...
I think it really sucks to be in the class committee, or being in the class at all...
Don't mind me, I'm just being my old pessimistic snobbish idiotic 'hate me!' type of self. Isn't that right?
I'm really in awe of how teachers do it- how they handle the class and its students. They make it look so easy...
I might have been a little too harsh during the monday incident, but what really pains me is that people still don't get my point....
I'm TOTALLY fine with anyone from the class being angry with me for being too harsh- but being angry at me without really understanding what I was trying to get at is a totally different thing.
The main point of what I said was that if anyone in the class were NOT interested to help out with the planning, they could leave the class. This is because I don't want them to feel like I'm forcing them to stay back.
So what? You want to throw something at me just because I'm letting those uninterested people go so that they don't have to help plan?
LISTEN!
If you do not want to help, I'm not forcing you to stay back. I'm letting you leave the class so that you can go do whatever is your business.
And right now, people are angry with me for giving you guys such an option?
Picture this: If I hadn't said that and the bell for the school dismissal had already rung, everyone would be packing up their bags all in the mood to go home.
They would go, "Eh... can hurry up and finish this thing or not?"; "HURRY!!! FASTER"; "Can go liao mah?"
Prove to me that this wouldn't have happened AT ALL.
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I'm ready to be proven wrong, in fact, I am all the more happy to be proven wrong.
Don't get me mixed up for being so arrogant.
Here's the point.
I gave you guys a choice to leave the classroom if you didn't want to help. The part that I DON'T understand is that you guys are angry with me for letting you go.
Don't you see that either way people are displeased?
All the more you can be angry and that I'm in the wrong.
Perhaps I shouldn't have been that harsh.
I could tell you that " but would anyone listen to me if I were more polite?"
and you could go "Yea... "
But do you really see it at all?
I don't know.
What's the point of coming up to tell me that the class is so noisy when the main contributors are those that come an complain to me?
What's the point in being angry with me for doing my job as a councilor and telling you guys to keep your handphones and mp3s?
WHAT'S THE POINT IN ME DOING ANYTHING AT ALL FOR THE CLASS WHEN IN RETURN I GET A CRAP OF SHIT?
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Tell me...
because I've given up everything related to the class- the memories, the fun times... everything.
I don't care if you hate me, or if you want to throw something at my face.
Just remember...
when you look back and finally get my point,
when you realize that your inmaturity was simply too much for me to take
when you realize that everything that I did, I only wanted the best for you guys,
It's too late to go back in time and fix it anymore.
J
6:49 AM
