2nd Entry today
My heart is pounding because time seems to be ticking away...
It's also pounding because I may never get the chance to tell her anything...
...
It's like everything is feeling kinda up tight right now and I've got to run to different places at consecutive times, yet all I want is to see her. Talk to her... get to know her.
That's all I wish for...
haha... Simple wish, right? :)
Yea... Simple but highly unlikely... Perhaps I'm being a little pessimistic but I am definately WAY WAY out of her radar...
Anyway, my self-esteem's been running quite low for a few days now...
(Promising to work harder next year...
Holidays will be packed with revision... Serves me right :( )
Tomorrow's the last day of school... It's kinda' like a bitter sweet ending.
you want things to finally wrap up and be part of "history"... and yet you wish you had more time to accomplish your task to get over to her class and simply confess.
Why do I sound like a despo.... :(
haha... It's ok... I admit... My feelings are getting a little hard to control because I'm being stretched in all directions again.
C'mon... let tomorrow be kinda eventful and fufilling.... That's all I ask for...
(I'm definately placing that into my prayer request...haha.... Okay... not funny.)
I'll try to upload photos tomorrow from school to perk things up abit after the public survey...
I'll probably give an account (Depending if I survive tomorrow... which I know is going to be another TORMENTING DAY)
Something just happened earlier in the evening that left me wondering if I were doing the right thing...
I don't know whether to feel accomplished or to feel guilty...
Anyway...
There are a few things that could cheer me up greatly tomorrow... like the new episode of LOST... Tako Balls from 7- 11.... A chance for me to confess everything to her...(Or even a chance to just talk to her would be great)
Nah...
My brain tells me it's impossible... yet my heart tells me not to give up.
So...
Brain or Heart?
Brain? Heart?
BRAIN?
HEART????
BRAINORHEART???
*faints*
I can tell you one thing though... Sze Howe doesn't know where the Peer Appraisal Survey thing is... (It's kinda like a "Give a grade for how efficient this SC is"... A MID YEAR EXAM for Scs...)
sheesh!!!
I'm knocking my head on the computer right now as I type this...
Where is it, ah... :(
It's coming 11 liao....
I think I better call Teck Ee.... (Just sent him an SMS)
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J
7:32 AM
